Monthly Archives: February 2009

We lost our 1st choice property…..twice. Now we just received notice that we lost our 2nd choice property, too. We may be selling everything we have and moving into an RV…..or maybe a boat. This really shouldn’t be this difficult…..everyone said it was a buyers market!

We think we may have found a home and a plot of earth to call our own! We think….maybe….we hope!?! Now we must see if the bank will accept our bid and play the whole bartering game. It’s too soon to get excited, God could very easily close this door……and yet……. the excitement level is rising while we wait for an answer. We need to be ready for God to say, “No.” We still have to go on another house hunting mission this weekend, we hope it will be our last one. (or if the bank accepts our bid, we can cancel it altogether.) More details when we know something for sure!

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do and He will show you which path the take.

That has been my mantra, of late, as we seek where we are to be next. We are willing to go, we are willing to stay…..renting is an option, so is buying, so is living in our RV with all our “stuff” in storage or sold. We are really quite flexible, we don’t want to step outside of God’s will on this. Despite our prayers and going through the motions of looking and keeping all options open, we are not getting a clear direction. Our deadline to move is creeping closer by the day. We have to do SOMETHING, but we don’t want to force something that is not God’s will for us.

We’ve looked at many houses that we really wanted to LOVE. Rentals that would allow us the flexibility to leave quickly, should God call us. Homes in which we could continue to root our ministries here. The prices are good, but they just don’t feel right. We pray some more and wonder why we don’t love them, we should love them, we need to go somewhere…..it seems irresponsible to wait to the last minute…..yet here we sit, wondering what we should do. Praying for a quiet voice, a sign, a burning bush, a pile of bricks….anything to give us a clear direction.

We found “the house”, but it is not coming down in price like the others. We hesitate to offer to rent it or offer him what the market value on it would be. If God wanted us there, wouldn’t the price be coming down like all the other houses? Are we being good stewards to consider this house? Are we showing lack of faith by not talking to the man and seeing what God can do? We are both prepared for this door to be closed and that is okay, God has always worked WAY beyond what we can imagine. We just aren’t sure how much we should do versus waiting to see what God will do.

A sufficient time has passed since we sent out apps to Colorado. We took that to mean that God had closed that door, for now. We were grateful for at least one answer in our sea of uncertainties, then last week, another job was posted within the company….. for Colorado. It is a good fit and in a different area… still near mountains. I feel like we are grasping at threads, do we apply or not? I recognize that God is not dependent on our applications. Hubby has always applied for one job and somehow his applications get passed to someone else and we end up hired for jobs even better than what we applied for. We can see how God groomed Hubby in his training and work experience to be where we are today….it’s a far cry from what he trained for in college, but what a fun ride it has been. We’ve been reminded by mentors that if we don’t “knock” on the doors presented to us, we may miss out on something. Is this why we are still unclear? Would applying bring the clarity and next flurry of activity, or just be another “option” where we already have too many?

So we wait. We wait and watch the circled date on the calendar creep closer while we continue to look at rental properties and homes. We wait and we pray for clarity again. We don’t feel overly anxious in our spirit, but in our minds, we struggle daily with the need to make plans and take action. We repeat God’s promise to make our paths clear, every time our minds struggle with the waiting. We know in our hearts the promise is true and we go through the motions until our minds can follow with certainty. So we wait.